Jessica Kidd

Full Name: Jessica Kidd

Age: 39

When and Where were you born? 8/23/77 Fort Wayne, Indiana

 

Year Started Dancing: January, 2016

 

Influence to start dancing?

Kidd: I chose. To overcome, to break the chains of fear and of the childhood that molded me to be tough. Life asked me to show up as a small adult instead of a child and hold strong through the adversity around me, showing no weakness. Being tough is my survival tool, it has created great successes and accomplishments. But, being tough it is also my prison, holding me back from emotional expression and vulnerability. I want to free myself through dance.

 

Main style of dance?

Kidd: Hip Hop, the movements, the beat.. It is energetic and exciting and moves me just the same.

 

What are your dance dreams?

Kidd: I would love to learn power moves and even a little breaking. I watch the dancers and instructors with eyes wide open. I could literally watch them all day and never be bored.

 

What goals have you accomplished in dance?

Kidd: Showing up.. every week, enrolling session after session. Small steps toward being present in my own body and comfortable expressing myself through movement. An absolute work in progress, but I continue to chip away little by little every week.

 

What goals do you have in dance?

   Kidd: I want to experience the breakdown. In order to feel my dance, my individuality, my movement.. I’ve got to break through these barriers. I am trying. I am lucky to have such open and supportive people around me at School of Breaking, both classmates, new friends and instructors, like Chase. He sees where I stand and he allows me to just be, all while providing a safe space to let go.

 

What obstacles have you overcome?

Kidd:  I have glimpses of myself from time to time, the free spirit me that is hidden. The carefree me that surfaces when I feel free from life’s demands and in the moment. Small successes, all because I refuse to let my fear define my results.

 

What has been your most difficult obstacle you’ve had to overcome in dance?

Kidd: Freestyling. Every. Single. Time. I am not afraid to stand on the edge, to face fear. I believe in myself, I surround myself with positivity and ‘I cans’. I live fully and take the risks that others won’t. I have self love and acceptance for who I am and who I am not. Expressing emotions, however, does not reflect the same confidence. A wall separates me from that expression and holds me back from vulnerability. Engrained at a young age that emotions are weakness, they are cracks. This is my obstacle. This has a direct impact on my fear of dancing freely. I am moving in the right direction, but have yet to overcome.

 

Is there anything you are currently struggling with in dance or in life?  

Kidd: Absolutely. Life is full of peaks and valleys. But I continue to smile and move forward no matter the stress or weight it bears, because it is only temporary. And more often than not, I choose the outcome.

 

What has dance given to enrich your life?

Kidd: It brings me back to center, always leaving with a smile and feeling of accomplishment.

 

How do you perceive yourself as a dancer?

Kidd: Awkward. But if you know me personally, you know that my personality is a bit off the wall, so this isn’t so far fetched even if my dancing skills were up to par. Unsure. I have no idea what to do with my hands or arms at any given point. They are just along for the ride hanging out Carlton style.

 

What do you appreciate about your dance?

Kidd: No matter how I choose to move, or how I feel about my movement, it is MY movement, nobody elses. That’s what’s so great about dance.. There is no right or wrong, it is unique and individually created.  

 

What has School of Breaking done to benefit your growth as a dancer?

Kidd: Accepted me for who I am and who I am not. Providing a safe space to just be, emotionally and physically through dance.

 

What are the next challenges you want to take on as a dancer?

Kidd: The Spring recital is coming up! Outside of that, continuing classes until I feel ready to move into a more advanced class. The flash mob was fun, I would definitely do that again!

 

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